There are so many things that run through my head day in and day out. I at least think about whether today is my last day with my children well every min. Today I face the facts of my husband family wants more for him then me. Everyone is nice, but I feel it. I couldn’t agree more! I often ask why he would want to create a life with me knowing it could be gone any minute. I am by far perfect and clearly have a lot of baggage.